Am I Dwelling?

When I was pregnant and walking a lot this summer, I listened to podcasts. I started listening to ones on prayer, because I was continuing the questioning of: “If God is sovereign and He knows all, how do we pray?” I found this podcast called “Prayer Storm Podcast,” and the main speaker is James Aladiran. Wow! He has amazing points about prayer, and he consistently talks about dwelling with God, praising Him, and focusing on Jesus not ourselves. During one of his episodes, he talks about Psalm 27:4: “One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.” His challenge was that if we could only ask the LORD for one thing, would it be to dwell with Him, to gaze on His beauty, and to seek Him? The definition to dwell is: to live in or at a specified place
This week, I prayed that. I told the LORD I wanted to dwell with Him and gaze on His beauty.
To give you a brief history of this week, our daughter is in another growth spurt. Last week, I decided to stop googling sleep techniques and to just be ok with what she wants at this point. I realize that our child is a gift, and she is truly a joy with her smiles and giggles. Her sleeping desires were really bothering me, though, and I just couldn’t get the root cause down and fix it (which is in my DNA to help fix things). You see, she won’t sleep in her crib for naps. For the first 5 weeks of her life, she would only nap if she was being held. Now, she sleeps in her rock n play during the day. She seems to like being around the action, or maybe she just wants to know that I’m near. I also received an email from a friend this week with a blog about how this mom tried everything to help her baby sleep, and she was prompted to invite the Holy Spirit into every interaction with her baby and stop trying to google everything. Hmmm… seems I can relate.
So last night, she was very fussy. More than normal, which is part of the growth spurt. She didn’t want to eat. She wasn’t calming down. I was getting frustrated, and in my head I was saying “I don’t know how to help you or what you want, child.” And then, a thought hit me. What if I just hold her tight to my chest and wrap my arms around her? What if she just needs to feel secure with whatever she is feeling, and what if I can provide her that comfort? So I did; and she calmed within a minute and fell asleep shortly thereafter. As this interaction occurred, it hit me. What if that is what it means to dwell with the LORD? What if He just wants me to feel safe and secure in Him. Sure, I question my prayers and His sovereignty. But what if I am just supposed to live and enjoy His presence and thank Him for who He is. His ways are higher than my ways (Isaiah 55:8-9). I cannot begin to fathom who He is, but He is good, He is my Father, He calls me by name, He calls me His daughter and has made me royalty. I need to dwell on these truths, which characterize Him and His kingdom.
So here I am. Hit by this new realization of dwelling. What my daughter needs is safety, security, and knowing that I will comfort her, as she goes through this time of growing. And that is exactly what I need in being with God – to know that I don’t have to have a plan for my daughter daily, I don’t have to have this mothering thing figured out, but I just need to dwell with Him and invite the Holy Spirit into my interactions with her. As I do this, my daughter will see more of Christ in me, and she will feel more secure with me. So here I am, holding her, embracing the slobber, and cherishing the fact that she trusts me to feel secure and says, “Mom, I need you to hold me right now.”
This can apply to all parts of life, not just parenting. So my question for you is: Would the one thing you ask from the LORD be to dwell with Him, gaze on His beauty, and to seek Him? Are you joyfully being present daily, or do you continuously search out answers and google things (like I’ve been known to do)? What if you don’t need to have the answers and just embrace your situations?

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Megan S.

I'm a born and raised farm girl from WI and am passionate about life - Living with purpose, on purpose, and sharing purpose. Saying yes to my passions and helping people be able to say "Yes to Joy".

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